[Cindy Lanese]

I appreciate the tools and excercises to carry forward. It’s an inward place of listening to leadership of one’s own soul voice that feels like the place I want to continue to expand. I know too well how to “lead the old ways”. There is this place of allowing I’m leaning more into. And that is a practice of allowing what’s in front of me, what’s true and what isn’t full of pushing ambitious efforting. I will continue to use the classes and support of EBI and I’m so grateful for all the facilitation, both seen and unseen with folks in the background we don’t even know were helping. Thanks for this experience and all of you who opened yourself to participating wholey .

In my feet happy to be standing,
Cindy Lanese

[Cindy Lanese]

It’s continual awareness for sure. “Reintegration with intention.” I have this desire to feel this and not use these as buzz words. Right now I am working to embody what is felt and step back without the running commentary or any judgement and allow and even dialog with it. Sometimes I can see what’s going on and sometimes it happens so fast I’m lost in it before I know it. It’s encouraging to hear Michael repeat we just keep coming back to this moment. It’s my experience that while being at sit spot, that slowing down helps let my edges, defenses, mind, to soften and relax. THAT helps to let in what is already ongoing as nature herself to come into my body and experience…attention. The exercises are good practice tools.

[Cindy Lanese]

The work of observing and allowing what comes along, to listen and recognize the familiar feeling and sensations and do nothing but observe has been uncomfortable and also less and less gripping although still present. Oh there you are young one. You’re feeling that familiar sense of shame. Ohhhh yes. I know this again. I am working with accepting it’s presence right in there. Sometimes it’s the I don’t want to be responsible part, do I have to??. But too it’s also less of a resistance than it has been before. This must come from more than just me, I’d say it’s old and generational as well. The caretaker part can feel resistant and resentful, the young part doesn’t want to do what it doesn’t want to. There is the another part that feels the same if not “meeting the precieved expectations” that makes me feel wrong. Noticing many many parts. Haven’t named them but this work is making me more aware and soften into the recognition of their presence more. I appreciate hearing you speak about the judgement piece Cate. I’ve noticed that come up for me as well. Watching….where is this trying to serve me? It helps with being less Inside the believing of the story.

[Cindy Lanese]

Thank you cohorts! I appreciate your experience and desire for transforming your lives with a larger and more soulful vision of yourself. I am also in transition, it’s time for me in the last third of life to bring myself and who I am to serve in a fresh way. I feel a great “I don’t know mind” . Who am I now, who do I want to be, where am I being engaged to serve? In many ways I need less, care about relationship, connection and community more. My vision is not detailed but I have had a sense of a “person land project”. Community working with collaboration with the land. I am staying open and holding this loosely because I want to stay informed by what emerges as it does.
How I am in alignment is that I live in a way that honors the hoop of life, all living beings (as best as I can), and hold the dignity, joy and beauty in being here on our living planet. I make ritual to the water every day at our Olentangy River that runs through Columbus, Wyandotte, the Miami and Shawnee’s traditional land. How do I serve now at this time?
I believe more of the work for me currently is in relaxing into not knowing, self-trust, and radical self love, Letting go of my old ideas of who I need to be, the way things need to be, and how this moment BE the one that’s most alive. Working with the fact we have everything we need now and are missing nothing. How can I move and walk in a way that transmits We belong to each other, honoring our relationships with land and all our relations everywhere. I’m concerned about our living planets and those that will inherit what we’ve created.

[Cindy Lanese]

I’m thrilled that you went first Kelly, since the tone was set in such a resonating way. I hear you Jaclyn, Kelly and Nelumboheali. In regard to regenerative living and work. First I will speak about soul for me.
I feel soul is both within and without. She has an ancient life and it is what animates the body. We embody the soul and the soul embodies us. When cut off at the neck and it’s only thinking – I lose the knowing that comes with being sensory through this body. My intention to to come back to who is already here and remember this is where the wisdom, knowing and purpose lives. Heart Based. I’m also learning it doesn’t always make sense what feels right for me to do but sometimes I find out later why that made sense. Other times I have no clue!! It’s a life of mystery, listening and not full of answers often but often more musing, dream times, contemplation and felt senses. I too worked for so many years in a box container and was let go due to insurance redesign. I’ve been on a healing journey that keeps me outside and connecting. This feels like it could be the way I can continue to live in right relation AND Live in alignment while making dollars.
The Nature connection piece is really about relationship for me. We are always in relationship with everything thing and everyone. I see our planet as a living breathing being and as part of the hoop of life. Humans Not being in charge of all nature but each species have our part within this life. The humans seem to have lost their knowing how to uphold their part, and it’s a big part of my being here to remember that part. I have a sit spot where I go and be with all my friends who live there. Turtle family, beaver family, fish and fowl. These one’s make my life rich and large to see them and greet them, they give such great joy!! We are not alone and when we slow to pay reverence and give thanks, more life shows up! I am grateful to join with my cohorts and learn and grow in a way were all life is valued and tended through natures grace.

[Cindy Lanese]

Hello to all,
My name is Cindy and I’m very excited to be work together in this coaching opportunity together. I’m an ecopsychology facilitator and changing directions in my own life into more earth based practices. EBI is new for me and I’m looking forward to really getting to know about how I can serve self, other and planet compassionately. I’ve been leading forest baths for about one year now. I had to miss this first session but will be catching up and ready for the rest! Ready for the kindred spirit connection!!

[Cindy Lanese]

Thank you all these are honest and vulnerable shares about this mysterious path we walk. I am in an uncomfortable pat as well like Christine mentioned. I’m looking for work but have the vision of bringing others as well as myself into deeper relationship with the more than human world as well as the human world. Invitations of activities in nature as nature, that give us more interaction and development in listening and speaking and building compassion, feeling our pain and deep grief while finding the play and laughter that’s along side the grief as well. I’d like to focus on woman of middle age, and even older (there is mentoring to do). Recently I was in a state of inertia that was just plain painful. I hope I’m moving out of it now. It’s the looking hard and seeing where I need to take responsibility and be accountable for my life. I want an accountability buddy. I long for a community that wants to be that for one another in all the stages that come with that. Closer to what’s important, mot what we own. Deepening relationships so that we see we have so much more when we look past the bubble wall of our own special separateness. How can we be there for each other in times of struggle and grief as this collapse that’s already here, creeps into our own comfortable lives? I’ve heard of some places that teach these things and then send the person back to their own community to help develop that locally. I’d love to be involved in teaching/guiding in that way ` where I don’t have the answers but we live into the questions together.