Kelly Janae
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Hey Jacklyn, just wanted to reach out personally to see if you have found housing already? I’ve already paid for my AirBNB with a group of people, but I may not be joining you all in a few weeks. Looking for someone to take that over. It’s around $430 for Jan 23rd-Feb 2nd. Let me know!
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Is anyone still looking for housing for the Foundations week?
I may no longer be joining you all for the January intensive, but my AirBNB with a group of 5 others is already paid for. Please let me know if you are still without housing and would like to take over my spot!
Thanks (:
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It appears that the next step in my path of personal leadership is being more actively involved in the healing of my family. Thanksgiving was a time of transparency to patterns that are repeating themselves throughout generations, and I know that I can be an active participant in putting an end to those tragedies. I am likely sub-leasing my house for at least six months to move back home and be closer to the family, and specifically to those in need of my solidarity and companionship. I am certainly in a place of balancing my own needs with the needs of others, which definitely ties into leadership.
My next step is taking the EBI coaching program starting in January, which I am excited and feel ready for. This next year I am focusing on getting organized and making sure that my decisions are based on faith instead of fear (“decisions made from faith have the full power of heaven behind them”). Quite frankly, I am talking as if I know what to do next, but really that’s as far as I’ve gotten. I seek wisdom, and it seems to find me well enough, so for now I will simply appreciate all that life has granted thus far in confidence that it will continue to provide with perfect timing and execution.
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Hey everyone!
There’s quite a few AirBNB options for 5 or more guests that are cabins or entire houses. I found one for $111/night that sums up to $1,111 for 9 nights (Jan 23rd-Feb 1st) and divides into $222.22 for each person. If that is not auspicious then idk what is. I am sure we could fit more people though if we wanted. It is located 20 mins from Starhouse, but it is in the mountains so travel to and from Boulder would be a bit more difficult.
https://www.airbnb.com/rooms/22794673?check_in=2020-01-23&check_out=2020-02-01&adults=4&children=0&infants=0
https://www.google.com/maps/dir/40.0048871,-105.3557778/The+StarHouse,+3476+Sunshine+Canyon+Dr,+Boulder,+CO+80302/@40.0253962,-105.3409309,14z/data=!4m8!4m7!1m0!1m5!1m1!1s0x876be937fed88b29:0xe8fa897b3134fec6!2m2!1d-105.3261383!2d40.0481951I also reached out to the host of this home in downtown Boulder that hosts 5. I asked if it could host 6 and it looks like she offers a discount if people take care of her cat. Should have a response by the call this afternoon which I will try to make at least for a short time.
If I can identify a group of people who is willing to commit and coordinate then I am happy to make the reservation in advance and have everyone reimburse me after via Paypal or check. We can exchange emails.
I will let someone else handle the car rental which can also be shared (:
Cheers!
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From personal experience, I hold the firm belief that life is easy when we are following the path. When I say easy, I mean things fall into place — there is hardly any resistance, things flow, and changes happen quickly. When resistance comes up it is simply an opportunity for change, either internal or external.
Things have been flowing so beautifully lately. My new job is better than I could have ever dreamed. I get to travel the world, make my own schedule, work remotely, learn about new ways to incorporate natural solutions to pollution and other human-caused environmental issues, and apply what I am passionate about/what I studied in college in real-world applications both in design and implementation, meet people from different cultures and deepen my connection with nature and to all human beings, and work with some of the most passionate, motivated people I’ve ever known. My talents in leadership, writing, engineering, science, and even nature-connected coaching, meditation and spirituality are valued among my team members, and I am being encouraged to take initiatives such as leading intentional service trips for my nonprofit, which is something I did in college and absolutely loved.
This year was rough; it felt like I had to overcome lots of inertia before all started to come together, but now that I have overcome some things and taken upon rites of passage, I can feel the momentum of my future building upon itself. What is keeping me moving forward is my Vision itself, because looking back I can clearly see that anything I have ever dreamed for myself has come true, or is showing clues that it will be coming true in the future if I continue taking strides. Faith in nature and the Universe is driving me forward. SYNERGY is another driving force – the people I am meeting are really acting as networks and connecting nodes for finding those opportunities and the knowledge that otherwise it would take me an entire lifetime to find. I am allowing myself to become more open to learning from others, and in doing so, I am finding my unique path much easier.
Above all, I feel that I have CONTROL and AWARENESS over what is going on. I have constant tabs on the flow of my life, not in a “controlling” way but in a self-assured way that if something has gone wrong, that I am able to sense it and do something about it. I think if we get too carried away in the motions, especially if they seem to be “flowing beautifully”, then we are putting ourselves at risk of not taking action when life asks that of us. Change is happening constantly and honestly, that is when I feel most alive. I feel more mature than ever before and that makes me feel more confident in continually evolving into the human being and spirit that I know I can truly be. In this moment I am taking particular care to inventory the people I have in my life and what effects they may be having on me. I feel objective but still empathic in my decision-making, and level-headed. That to me is a sure indication that my Vision is aligning with Soul, at least in this very moment.
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I am late to answer this question because I have been traveling. It is interesting to be enrolled in a course like this as someone who does travel a lot for work (or at least, will be from this point on), because it is somewhat more difficult to have “routines” when every single day seems to require something new, or to be in another place. However, all of the exercises that we have learned in this course are possible anywhere, anytime, which is what I really appreciate about this work.
I have collected items that represent all of my parts as currently understood, and put them in a small medicine pouch that I can take anywhere I go. I took this with my on my recent 10 day adventure, but did not really have the space to lay out my parts. In fact, it was difficult to find much time for self-reflection as I was working and moving around nonstop, but I was appreciative to have a physical reminder of my Soul work with me the whole time (even if it just sort of stayed among my socks and underwear). Simply gathering these objects was a meditative and helpful exercise that allowed me to understand myself better, and now I have something that I can take with me and hopefully be more intentional about using in future travels.
I tried tapping into everyone’s vision councils when I was traveling as well, especially in the airport. That became a little overwhelming very quickly and I would not necessarily recommend it if you already have social anxiety or claustrophobic tendencies. That said, this practice has made me more aware of the depth that resides in each individual, and has especially brought me deeper into my own life experience. It’s like I have somehow sunk into this more substantial dimension of reality where ancestral ties and relationships hold more weight, and I feel closer to those that came before me and the same of those I come into contact with.
When it comes to my sit spot, I have sort of adopted wherever I am as my sit spot, especially because it is now getting cold outside and that log does not seem quite as attractive as it did earlier this year. Each night I do meditate on my cushion however, and even on those nights where I feel like I don’t have the energy, I am pulled to it and find such peace in just sitting and tapping into those higher frequencies of who I am on a deeper level. It makes me happy that my body asks that of me, and that I actually enjoy carving time out to be still. I am learning a lot about myself on a level that is somewhat subconscious. I can feel changes being made and I can already see manifestations in my everyday life, though I imagine the revelations will be coming like a wave in the next year. I’m adopting patience and compassion as my M.O. with this work and it’s making it extremely enjoyable.
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Hey everyone! I am also coming from out of town (Raleigh, NC) so I would be interested in finding a way to stay and travel around Boulder in a cost effective fashion. Keep me in the loop. I look forward to meeting all of you!
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Parts work is proving to be very beneficial in my life, because I am realizing there are parts of me that I have been completely neglecting. Namely, The Athlete. I grew up playing competitive soccer and starting competitive Crossfit when I was 16, which I had done 5-6 days a week for 6 years, only to “quit” when I graduated college because of feeling ostracized at the gym and putting unnecessary pressure on myself. I spent years trying to fill that fitness void with things like yoga, dancing, hiking, or rock climbing, but I was constantly unhappy with my body and inability to get my physical energy out. My mind was obsessed with how I looked or felt, literally all day. It was like having an eating disorder.
Somewhat suddenly, I realized that my Athlete really needs to be embraced, and that yes I actually do love Crossfit. So I started going back to Crossfit again at an awesome gym, and I am going 5-6 days a week, and already feel so much better about myself and in my body! I thought I knew what was best for myself by suppressing the inner need for competition and fitness, but I was actually denying myself health and wellness in the process. I needed that time to heal my myth of feeling left out or “not good enough” at the gym, obviously; but instead of simply taking a step back with a neutral stance, I cut something out of my life that was actually very important to me, and lied to myself about it.
My temperament requires that I be very careful about making black-or-white decisions, i.e. cutting things out of my life all at once, or bringing things in for that matter. When I get emotionally charged I have a tendency to take on too much or burn bridges, both of which are difficult problems to resolve. So I am really working on being proactive about my meditation and nature walks as grounding forces, and not talking to people or making decisions until I have literally weighed all of my options and checked my emotions out. This in itself probably comes from a Part as well, who has yet to be named.
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Currently, I am in the process of deep transformation on a Soul- and archetypal level. Along with this transformation is the dispelling of beliefs and values that no longer serve me or others, and the subsequent adoption of beneficial habits, attitudes, and behaviors. It is especially timely that I am being asked this question now, as I am embarking on an entire year of “shadow work” with my Blackfoot elder starting in late October. Further, I am committed to the Nature-Connected Coaching program starting in January, which marks a paramount new beginning for me in terms of professional and personal development. I am also turning 25 in February, which is a milestone that I want to honor by recreating myself, leaving behind the old stories, and developing a new mythology that holds me in integrity and brings me closer to the truth of Who I Am.
The specific beliefs, behaviors and attitudes that need to change are as of yet unclear, or still developing in my psyche and mind. I am truly sitting in the Great Mystery, and slowly walking into the cave where I am being asked to confront myself. I can feel some resistance coming up, but I am not afraid. I am allowing my steps into this cave to be slow and intentional. I feel comforted by Owl energy, and confident in my abilities to see and hear in the dark. My dreams are telling in imagery and emotion; I am definitely processing and preparing myself on a deep level for the work that is to come.
In terms of how I am living with my vision currently, I suppose I am in observation mode, scanning for discrepancies between who I want to become, and who I am now. I am waiting in courage and patience, with my senses on high alert for my Parts to make themselves apparent even on the subtlest of levels. I am embodying a predator-prey relationship of sorts within myself. This is about survival — I have graduated from “wanting” change to “needing” change. So, mark my words, I will embrace the confrontation and either overpower or outsmart whatever part of myself wants to manipulate and lie to hold me back. Compassion and gentleness are here too, but I honestly am over taking any BS from myself. So the work shall be done, the Vision shall be aligned with Soul, and So It Is.
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Sounds to me like you are floating somewhere in the Great Mystery, as it is sometimes called. Your sense of what is pulling you forward is strong and even though you cannot “see” the future of where you are going, you are at least present as to what is pulling you there. I think if you trust in those currents, they will take you somewhere that you did not even think possible. Maybe this is the beauty and power of the Great Mystery – the vision could be even bigger or better than you can even possibly conceptualize, so “life” is giving you a chance to just not worry about it and enjoy the ride! (:
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Love your response. I am also taking the NCC course because coming into awareness of my Soul has been the foundation of my healing work. Without tapping into who I actually am, I would not be able to make changes, and to recognize those deeper layers. I think if everyone were even just a bit more connected with their Soul, so to speak, they would be more interested in the other work. The Soul is like the gateway to healing, because once we feel the essence of all that we are, we are primed to believe that we can actually access it, and therefore can gain some determination in doing the work to achieve that wholeness.
I’ve realized some triggers for myself lately where I have actually been forcing a new response to it. Sometimes the very concept of food gives me anxiety because of body image and self-control fears, and now that I have realized this, when anxiety comes up I literally just talk myself down like “I am relaxed. I am peaceful. I am calm. Food is my friend. I love my body.” I feel like it’s working, and my belief in that simple restructuring makes me more patient with myself. Triggers are interesting and sometimes very subtle. Definitely something I would like to expand on in my personal practice.
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The anecdote about your wife asking if you wanted pepper, and you realizing that you didn’t actually even like pepper, I think is a really great example of how the simplest things can empower us to take charge of our own lives. It also illustrates the importance in asking others what they need or want, because that is an opportunity for someone to make up their own mind. I know sometimes I have difficulty making decisions, and I think that is the confusion that happens when we assimilate other peoples’ expectations of us into our own desires and needs. So every time we give someone the space to make a judgment-free choice, we empower them to take a stand for what they believe in, or simply what they like or dislike.
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It’s interesting to imagine all of our parts working together in different roles to complete the entirety of what we do in our lives, as you described. Perhaps that’s why sometimes my mind feels like it’s scattered when I have responsibilities or needs all over the place – my parts are no longer working together. My Parts have gone rogue! It’s kind of like rallying up a team who has forgotten the “big picture” so instead starts to focus so hard on something that may not even be important that everyone ends up in their selfish silos of accomplishing something, so it is important to spend time having everyone present at a meeting/council so you can regroup. Being the Soul is like being the manager of a team, or being the alpha wolf with a pack of pups. Gotta take control when it’s getting dangerously unorganized. It’s kind of a hilarious image honestly, thinking about my parts running all over the place without a clue.
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I empathize with your reply as a fellow female who has used her “masculine”, do-er side to achieve many of her goals in life thus far. It was not until a mental breakdown in college that I had to really tend to my feelings, and ever since that time I have also been on the journey of balancing my feminine/masculine sides. Tapping into the emotional/receptive side of my Self has been most beneficial in actually understanding what my vision is, what my body and mind and heart needs. Without sitting in uncertainty for a period of time my mind gets overwhelmed, my body tense, my breathing short, anxiety ensues and I get paralyzed. I see this as a positive sign that my body and mind put on the brakes so that I can take a cue and find ways to relax, even if that means getting out of my house and going on an adventure with a friend for the weekend. The balance between achieving and just being is an interesting paradigm of the human experience, isn’t it…
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Beautiful words, Cindy. I like that you mention the ’embodiment’ aspect of soul, as we were obviously given these forms as an expression of soul itself! When I get lost in my head, everything becomes so confusing. When I am able to settle my energy down into the more grounded energy centers, and allow emotion to flow through me (something I have really struggled with), life becomes so much more peaceful and easy.
